Sometimes it feels as if life requires so much energy from me. Energy that I do not always have. It takes so much of me sometimes to just take a step, saying a word. So much energy. The environment around me also requires so much of me. What do you want?! Why can not I just be left alone?
The bed is so incredibly inviting. In it, I can lay and hide me from the outside world. I want to stay here and hide. No energy to devour me. No claims suffocating me. Nothing. Just me and nothing more. Life is sometimes suffocating me, To live is like walking into a swamp, it is demanding and slow and there are many places to sink in and disappear. Sometimes it feels like I'll disappear somewhere.