I got a question about how long I have been Muslim. Yes, it is clear that one who converts questions about his conversion. I thought that maybe there were more who were curious and therefore more suitable to reply to the comment in a post than as a comment back to her commet, I think.
I've been a Muslim for nearly two years. It took me almost a year before I was able to tell my decision for my family, so yes there was a lot of sneeking around the first year. Yes I was a coward, I admit. I wish I had dared to tell right away but then I knew there was a lot of negativity towards Muslims in my family (not by all members, but from some of them) and therefore I simply dared not. My mother is very disapointed with me. She sees a starnger and not a daughter when she looks at me. She thinks I have abandoned the family for my new lifestyle. Though it did get better since I gave birth to my little son. She now feels we have gotten closer. And I do to but for how long. And really it is because we do not talk about me being a muslim or anything muslim related.
The first year I experimented a lot with the hijab. I wanted so to use it, but because of problems with my family, I could not have it all the time. Then I decided that I was obviously not ready for the hijab since I cared so much about what my family thought. While I am a bit sad about my own weakness, I think it also is smart to not take a hasty decision.
